There are times I feel absolutely nowhere... even though I know I'm on the road to somewhere.

So many thoughts, feelings and words rolling around in my brain at the moment.

There are things that need to be said and words that need to be written...

Soon...

On My Own Path

Robert Frost's poem has been rolling around my mind for a while now. Give the poem a read

The Road Not Taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


~
At some point in my life I took the road less traveled. Now, I'm not talking about decisions of Faith which in and of itself is taking the road less traveled.

But today I'm talking about something different. I have come to the conclusion that I am exceedingly odd even more than that however is the fact that I LIKE being unusual. I revel in being different.

I have chosen to take the road less traveled of individuality rather than conformity.

This fact and my natural personality make it hard for me to fit in to group dynamics. I sometimes wonder if my celebration of my difference puts people off. I so badly want to be accepted into groups and have deep and lasting friendships. But I want that without sacrificing my individuality. I begin to wonder if that is even possible.

I do not wish to waste my time on this Earth trying to be what others expect me to be. I wish to live by my own expectations and follow my own dreams. I want to meet people who enjoy individuality rather than uniformity. People who push the boundaries, think outside the box and can hold their own in a debate on a myriad of topics.

I decided to take the road less traveled. I am therefore forced to ask: has it made all the difference or has it just made life more complicated?

Well Now...

I really don't like it when people infer that I'm inadequate...

I may not do it your way. I may not even do it the RIGHT way. But I do it my way and it works for me...

I appreciate that you may be trying to help but I've managed to live my own life successfully for quite a while now and I am very happy with how it's going.

So please let me go on my merry way and use my own voice.

Thank you and goodnight...

Because Sometimes a Girl's Gotta Turn To Poetry...

Where Are You?

by Tafline

Do you look for me?

As I look for you?

Do you search people’s faces?

Looking for that ever-elusive spark?

Tell me!

Where are you?

Do you look for me?

As I look for you?

‘Cause I do…

I look for you…

I look for you

In the spaces in between

I look for you

Amongst the forest and the trees

I look for you

In the noises in my head

I look for you

In all the wrong places

Will you find me?

In my own little world

Will you want me?

Even if I’m a little strange

Will you understand?

The road I have traveled

Will you see me?

For what I am & what I could be

Find me!

Here waiting…

For the ever-elusive…

You

Image found:http://bojander.deviantart.com/art/Searching-for-light-2-157775777

So Freaking Cute!!!

I've fallen in love... with another camera!

Now don't get me wrong I'm not going to cheat on or leave my beautiful DSLR because seriously I have far too much fun with it. In fact, the most of my fun stems from my camera...

But this HOLGA camera is just so cute!!
Plus it wouldn't really be cheating on my DSLR because it's a film camera and can take two pictures at once... You can get in in Black, White, Blue, Red and Pink. It just looks like so much fun... I mean it's smiling at me!!
Here are some sample pictures you could take with it:

Nothing could ever replace my lovely Nikon d5000. But surely I could have both??!!?? I could love both equally just differently... *sigh*

It's going on my wish list for sure...

Count 'Em

So my last couple of posts were all woe-is-me/isn't-life-horrible-ly. While this is how I'm feeling I'm beginning to realize that focusing on the negative is in turn perpetuating this negative mindset.

My mum (quite rightly) told me off a bit for being such an Eeyore of late and she suggested that I start looking at the good, even tiny amounts of good, to break me out of this current negative mindset.

Here's 9 I came up with in the first 5 min..

1. My amazing family who put up with everything I throw at them and love me despite my current depressive kick.

2. My camera which during this rough, sad time can still supply me with so much joy.
3. Living in Australia - where we have amazing amounts of freedom (even if they are being slowly chipped away) and a welfare benefits scheme that helps who needs help. There aren't many places in the world where I could live and get benefits from the government for being disabled.

4. Getting a new client at work who better fits my personality. This is a serious weight off my shoulders. I was getting so stressed out with my previous client that when I can home from my first shift with my new client I felt completely relaxed.
5. My true friends who know who I really am and accept me for who I really am. I am realizing just how rare people like that are.

6. Having a house to live in, food to eat and a car to drive - which counts me in the population of the rich even though I earn relatively little.

7. My best friend who lives in another state but still cares enough to email, text and call regularly. Who wants to know what's going on in my life and gives me safety, comfort and acceptance.

8. Having computers, TVs, DVD's, a Itouch, a mobile phone and a plethora of books and art supplies all to keep me entertained.

9. Finding pretty pictures and words that express exactly how I'm feeling at any given time.

You know what? Making this list is lightening the load. It's amazing how your life can look light or dark just depending on your angle.

I will endeavor to pick the light out of the dark - even if it's only tiny specs of light. After all, life's too short to be depressed all the time!Image found on We Hear It

Until the next time I hope you mange to find light in even the darkest of situations...